Oh no this semester seems quite different from last semester...

I was talking to lydia today, telling her about my sianness and den she brought up a very good point "How come u this sem like so sian like that ah?"

And that set me thinking...somehow i have been feeling more negative, more jaded, more sian of school life this sem...i am still taking 5 mods like last sem so the workload is pretty much the same (heavyyyy)...perhaps it's becos last sem was the first one and i was still pretty much energetic and excited over all the new stuff? and den now tat it's the 2nd sem, things are almoz too similar as be4 (meetings, projects, assignments etc) and it's starting to get boring...hahaha...not that it was fun in the first place...

I dun rmb sleeping late very often last sem...somehow it's much different this sem...juz a quick recap, i can already recall myself slping at 230 last nite, 330 the night be4 and there was once or twice i acty slept at 530! hahaha and it's not as if i have no school the nxt day lah...zzz...the lethargy could be affecting my mood which explains why i feel more sian...juz yest, got 2 of my frens see me den say i look damn tired...ahahaha...i hear already dunno whether to laugh or cry...

Of coz it's gotta do with my procrastination...yeah i know it's my fault that i end up going onto msn and fb be4 i really get down to serious work/study...haha wan to change also not tat easy huh?

Also, i have a busy schedule consisting of lotsa diff stuff which has contributed to my shagness...going out early in the morning and coming back late at nite...hahah...this point has been talked about often but ultimately, i will still persevere thru lah...i dun wan to give anything up...

And den i am also a tad disappointed with my midterm results thus far...they certainly aren't lousy at all i muz say so i should be contented but i'm not....hahaha...the competitiveness in smu muz be getting to me -_-...or perhaps it's juz tat looking back at last sem when i did much better in the tests, this sem juz seems like a not-so-good one...

I need to find back the optimism i have always possessed...that spark which will reignite my life once again and gear me up for the remaining 6 weeks!

I'm thankful that there are ppl out there who i know we can talk so many random things and juz relieve the stress and chill out together without having to think abt work...and of coz sharing gossip/stories which i always like to hear about hahahaha...

On the bright side, tmr's a totally free day for me and it's my dad's birthday! =D hahaha i am so looking forward to taking a good long break tmrrrrrr...wheee...and den performing at open hse on sunday should be damn fun hahaha...

And when i think of my summer plans, it looks action-packed and a whole load of fun!

P.S. I got craving for buffet...hahaha anyone interested?